Sore winner

This past weekend, my high school's cheerleading squad won their first competition of the season. Now, I was a part of the team for four years, on varsity as a sophomore, and a captain my senior year. Also, we won state my sophomore and senior year. Therefore, by all means, I should be nothing but happy that they won on Saturday, especially since I still know most of the team as well as the coaches. But for some reason, I was more or less angry that they won. I don't know if it is just that I feel like I'm left out, or that they just aren't allowed to win without me. I think if you are a part of any kind of team or activity like that for so long, that you feel that it is so much a part of you, that to have successes without you is like a cheating lover.